I feel like this break went by way too fast. Last semester seemed to drag on and on and even after a month off from school, I feel like break just started. It may be because I am dreading going back but I am not sure. I have never dreaded going back to school, but for some reason, I am this time. I do not hate school; I actually like going to class and learning and taking notes (nerdy I know). I think I am dreading school because I know I am going to be busy and that I have no room for mistakes. College and I have not gotten along since the start, but I think I am so scared of failure this time that school is just freaking me out. I am sure once I start, I will be okay, but as of now... I'm nervous, easy semester or not.
If all went as planned since freshman year, I would be in my final semester of nursing school right now, about to start an amazing job, but no. It didn't go as planned. Health got in the way of school which got in the way of my grades and my happiness. I never really got involved in any clubs or such at Radford and I am not a partier, so I didn't attend many parties. At VCU, I commute, so it is hard to get to know people. I honestly feel like such a loner on campus. It didn't bother me last semester, but for some reason, it is now... I am going to try getting involved, but as I said, being a commuter, it makes it hard. Classes are early, meetings are late, and I live an hour away and the last thing I want to do when my back is bad is stay on campus all day.
Any words of advice? I know I sound like a Debbie Downer, but school is so important and I just feel like I have screwed up to the point of not achieving my dream or enjoying what are supposadly the "best years of your life."